Straitjacket Writers

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Month: October 2014

Antidepressant Can’t Believe It’s Expected To Fix This Mess All On Its Own

Antidepressant Can’t Believe It’s Expected To Fix This Mess All On Its Own

The Secret Dual Lives of People Living With Mental Illness

The Secret Dual Lives of People Living With Mental Illness

7 Ways Alien: Isolation Helped Me Accept My Anxiety Disorder

7 Ways Alien: Isolation Helped Me Accept My Anxiety Disorder

It’s about Canada, but other than specific numbers, the ideas hold true pretty much world wide.

beckycloonan:

I dream a lot about pits. Thanks Shawn Crystal for the peppy email! Back in work mode after a crazy con. So many drink. So many feelings. Love you all!

rubyetc:

rubyetc:

most people have a hard time accepting what they are going through is valid to begin with. Don’t add to that insecurity. 

It’s World Mental Health day today. To be honest, every day is an uphill struggle with mental health day in my world. I know this to be true for lots of others. So I am sending love to anyone battling right now, and Imma continue to promulgate a message of acceptance, love and care without bias. 

And you guys thought we missed WMH Day…

Anonymous:

Could you explain the whole “i don’t really have depression, i’m actually just a lazy piece of shit” = you’ve got depression, thing? It rang a bell for me and I’d like to know what you meant. Thanks :)

roachpatrol:

one of the most insidious things about depression is it doesn’t ‘feel’ like depression. even when you have it, you know you have it, you’ve been diagnosed—you still find yourself thinking, no, nope, this isn’t it, can’t be. it’s like the mental illness equivalent of that knight in monty python that keeps going ‘it’s a flesh wound! i’m fine, really! this is just a scratch, i’ll be up in a moment!’ even after all his limbs have been hacked off and he’s lying there helpless.

one of the most common narratives around it is that no one realizes they have depression until they start checking off what they consider to be normal aspects of their lives—and personal character flaws— against the checklist for depression symptoms. really key symptoms include:

  1. lack of motivation
  2. constant tiredness, even exhaustion
  3. finding no pleasure or satisfaction in activities they used to like, or that they know should feel good
  4. not seeing the point of doing anything
  5. increased and even unmanageable anxiety and fearfulness

any one of these symptoms drains away your ability to do work, cope with setbacks, overcome difficulties, or stop procrastinating. multiple symptoms create a pretty perfect storm of intertia and anxious self-loathing. you stop doing anything because it’s hard to get going, unpleasant while you’re at it, and afterwards there’s no reward. why bother, right? and when you’re always tired you get conservative of what little energy you can manage, and when you only feel emotions on the ‘empty to miserable’ spectrum you get really aversive to making mistakes. the whole mess very quickly and very insidiously loads every single thing in your life with toxic emotional baggage.   

and then someone says to you— or you say to yourself, ‘stop being lazy’. and that haunts you forever. because you’re lazy! the work is so easy. everyone else does it. everyone but you, you lazy asshole, lying around all day not doing this totally easy thing that you should be able to but aren’t. you don’t have depression! of course not. mental illness is for victims, is for blameless innocent people who can’t be blamed for being so understandably sick. but you can be blamed. you have a character flaw, and it’s getting worse by the minute. 

and that is how people who have been diagnosed, who have been medicated, who have been through therapy, can still spend all day hiding in bed and chewing themselves up over their failure to just somehow magically be a good, healthy, useful person, instead of treating themselves to a sick day and saying ‘yup! it’s depression. i need to be kind to myself.’

The worst question

The worst question

bipolarblogess:

One of my coworkers committed suicide last night, and I’m all sorts of messed up about it. I sobbed for a while, then went to the grocery store and bought the staples so I could eat my feelings for the rest of the night: Vanilla Coke, pizza, and ice cream.

Then the wait for sleep began, and the…

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.

drdavidmrmack:

Here is a four page autobiographical story that I wrote & drew about the death of my father a couple years ago.  
 
It was published in issue #4 of DREAM LOGIC. Published by Marvel Comics. Icon imprint that we created for our creator-owned books.
 
Also included here are the initial layouts for the story I did about my father. And learning of his death.

I had the story written out more or less. And I was percolating on how to tell the story visually and lay it out. I was with my friend Larry grocery shopping at the Publix in Atlanta walking the aisles with a cart thinking of the sequence. Some ideas started to come so I walked to the coffee shop close by, had a coffee and sat down and drew these pages out in scribbles like ths. Then returned to the Publix just as Larry had finished the grocery shopping.

 

More here:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/David-Mack/21231086294

I dunno if Asperger’s counts as Mental Illness, but the things Mack talks about here resonate with me, so I’m counting it.